So I did it, I attended a weightwatchers class; I wanted to wait for my second visit to blog about it as I didn't know if i'd return. It was petrifying. Honestly, I am still a bit scared of going but I'm sticking with it.
I signed up online for a monthly pass so that I had technically paid for four weeks so I hoped that would make me understand that I was investing in my health and I shouldn't waste my money. Well, I can tell you that I did not care about the money one bit when I stood at the front door to my meeting. I could have happily just turned around and pretended that I never signed up. Online was easy. I was contemplating just doing the whole weightwatchers online thing but I know myself and I know that I would not focus myself enough when I'm trying to change my life this much.
I think about three ladies went past me; all chatting and looking pretty happy. I just stood there, literally paralysed with fear because I didn't want to know the number on the scale. Which is ridiculous because I'd already weighed myself at home and posted a blog about it. There was just something about a person being able to see my body and associate a number with it that I didn't want; it seems more real; I didn't want to be judged with nowhere to run.
An elderly gentleman walked past me and held the door open and he had such a nice face that I couldn't stay outside any longer; he was too nice to leave hanging. So I followed him in and took his lead when he went to sign in at the register. I asked if I could sign up and that I had a print pass which was now quite creased for the way I'd being holding onto it for dear life. The meeting had just lost it's leader last week and they had a temp leader taking over which meant that the meeting was it a little bit of chaos but a lovely lady sat me down and explained everything to me and then it was time. I stepped onto the scale and I was 0.5lbs heavier than I thought but with the support of the group I knew I would be able to lose some weight.
There was one lady who had lost 1lb and she was over the moon; I was envious because I am normally so hard on myself for such a small loss but if there is one thing my meeting taught me; then it is that any step in the right direction, no matter how small, is still a step.
So I bought the magazine which was an amazing read and I came home and started to prep some meals which was fun. I am still using up food that I have in my cupboard and I used all my weekly points last week as some choices were not the greatest but when I attended my meeting on Tuesday I was thrilled to see a loss of 1.5lbs.
I am so pleased that I can tick off 2. Attend a weightwatchers meeting and cannot wait to start some more goals. Slow but steady is obviously worth it.
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